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You made me (dis)believe in love, baby.

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Ending with the last 5 words; I love you crazily forever.

I hope the next time i see you, you'll be the one who say "hi" to me first.

Thursday, November 13, 2008, 2:02 PM

i started to think a lot and it got me so confused so lost. why is it all happening so sudden. maybe it's not sudden. maybe it's just tt i haven notice abt it.woke up at 12plus this morning. nono afternoon. grandma called, i supposed. asking me to go over her hse. so i went over after i have bath and everything. headed to her hse with nth with me except my phone. saw sis under the blk, she's gng to do her hair as she is having D&D tonight. she asked me to acc her along but as i have nth with me so i din tag along. reached grand's hse and ate lunch. started to stare cos i have nth to do. grandpa was sleeping and he hasnt been feeling well lately. grandma called me over and started telling me things. all these got me feeling so heart-broken lah. she said tt grandpa was feeling terrible last night. his pain was bad ytd that he started saying things like he's dying and all. after hearing it i feel so damn sad lah, she said tt i din went to ask him how he is.i thot he was sleeping so din wan to wake him up. but after tt i did went him and ask him how he was. due to the medication ahgong was tired tt he could hardly open his eyes but he wasnt asleep. so he was talking to me with his eyes closed. but i was so sad that i started tearing when ahgong talked to me. i just cant stop at that moment but i din sound as though i was crying when speaking to him. i know ahgong care alot for me and sis but sometimes i got really busy and tired tt i started to neglect both ahmah and ahgong. :/ after talking with him i just went out and stare again. then grandma got me to clear up the things tt i left over when i was staying there. there is a big container filled with all my things. inside were notes, letters i wrote with besties, files and all sort of things. somehow, i realised tt there were many things which i have forgotten. until seeing those things then i realised i have a small brain which i have forgotten many pri sch things and sec sch stuffs too.

after clearing those things, watched tv and do all kind of things to kill time. then back hm now. dno wad to do. but soon i shall go clear up all my things. i need to start doing a lot of things like saving money, do hmwk, plan my hols and all sort of things. i just got so tired and lazy to think. dun even know wad exactly i want to do. :/ ohh well i shall start to spend more time with grands and also with meaningful things. cos i dun wan to regret. tt feeling will be so damn suck. shall have some time alone now to start thinking.

dear classmate also having prob lately. let's hope that everything would just have a nice ending. (: and i haven told ahgong tt i might not be gng with him to hosp on my b-day. i dno too cos i dun even know if i'm gng out to celebrate or wad. i dno how to tell ahgong tt cos i know ahgong would wan either me or sis to go along with him. on tt day is sis anni with bf and i doubt she would be acc ahgong. though dad said tt he would go with ahgong, somehow i still feel that it's not possible to throw ahgong there. well, i shall see how things go by then. too many things for me to think.